Never Taught Me !!

My eternal desire is to hold you
But it seems to me so hard to do
Is something wrong with my love?
I tried alot to reason it out

Every single day i made an effort
Yet i found myself lacking the force
Finally i lay on bed in pathetic pain
My love increases but nothing i gain

Am i holding you with me so tight?
Although i want to let it go every night
But when the hold of my feelings loosen
I am scared to find myself alone in the end

These feelings dominate me in unique way
Without them i'm a walking dead everyday
A grown-up who doesn't know to live on my own
Because you never taught me to live alone!

Where Will I Go ??

I do not know where will i go
Where no-one can find me hiding so
Seeking the peace that's in my heart
Trying to find the righteous path

I do not know where will i go
So that the fake laugh I can show
But bitter tears wetting my cheeks
In death alone my life will greet

No sun is there to shine my day
Gloomy clouds only await my way
Struggling to live this life happily
Fighting myself in this battle sadly

Stop digging my wounds deeper
The pain is immense never lighter
My head hangs low but still I try
To find the peace I have to strive

... Than I Could Show !!!

There's one fact that I can't deny
U changed my world with a blink of an eye
Have been transforming from worst to best
Because you are special to me than the rest

Don't know the courage occurred within me
Is it the best that I can be?
I love to care for you and to love
Because God sent me to you from above

Whether tears of sorrow or joy
It sheds non-stop when I'm with this boy
Should I count my stars when loved by you
Since it's the day when my dreams come true

My search has ended in what I look for
Shukran-Allah! I will not ask more
Each time I sigh when feeling content
This special feeling I never felt

For hours & hours there's something to say
To the sun that sets at the end of the day
But this poem has to end as you know
I LOVE YOU more than I could show.

Heart Is Broken

Brutally my heart is broken
Where its shape & form is gone
It has been stamped and crushed
But the throbbing in it is on

My heart is in fragments
I tried in vain to fix it up
For the little pieces are lost
From the result of many erupts

All i ask is an ideal love
But it came as test from above
He did this to me for a reason
So Will my heart be whole again?

I see no one as my rescue
Is my sin so severe to cure
Won't God give me another chance?
Where in the end I can happily dance!!

If I Could Go Back

If I could go back to my time

The innocence of my past

And I could hold it tight

The wonderful present would last

I'd cherish my every moment

Bring closer to my heart

And enjoy it to my fill

Where my happiness will never part

Laughing out my heart aloud

In the form of joy and fun

Will admire every action

Action and gestures I've done

Will treasure every ounce of life

That made me cry and smile

The efforts and pains I take

To walk an extra mile

Constructing my heartfull library

Where my feelings are expressed

That'll be my autobiography

Which I will never confess

Ideal Love

The pleasant moments we spent
It's not a phase but a legend
Little things we shared n yearned
It's the unfaded treasure we've earned

Helas! why should it change today
It has affected us in a special way
Those behaviours that arise inspite
Are what I found from your eyes

Is this one calls kismat konnection?
Strong faith of mine will have no end
Physically I may be far away
But my soul reaches you everyday

There is an echo in my heart
Constantly whispering I never forgot
My love is tattooed deep in you
As this is my ideal love honest n true

For Love's Sake

Tired, sick of this feeling
This dark n cruel loneliness
Can't sleep staring at the ceiling
Like a semi-dead tigress

Alive again when the phone rings
Empty smile appears on my face
But this duration is for a while
Like my heart comes back from a race

Trying hard not to weep
Fearing she'll hear my cries
Yet the tears stream down my cheek
Escaping my sorrowful eyes

On my bed is an ocean of tears
How much more should I take?
But I'd wait a thousand years
For her and for love's sake

Never Will I Forget

Last year when we had met
That's the day I never forget
The nights that we have shared
Made me learn you were rare

Very hard to beleive I met you
But it's the fact and it's true
It was love from my very end
Along with love came our passions

Helas! things took it's bend
Day by day my love was abandoned
I only survive to make you happy
But why do you make me feel crappy?

Wishing this link should go on
Although my trust for you has gone
Will I ever get over what you do?
Desperately wanting to make you true

Wretchedly I was dying that night
Yet i forgave you at your plight
Struggling with trying to forget
Because I love u the same as we met

Only One Chance

There's no more my heart can take
Always a second chance I want to make
Now it has become three, if it turns four
I will go away for I cant bear more

I can't rule your life for you
The choice is yours with what you do
Inside I have but nothing left
In times of love it feels like death

I'm only human, wanting more joy
Don't treat me like I'm just a toy
I hope from now you'll think of me
Through this distance, in love's loyalty

We have one life to walk in hand
At times it's hard, at times it's grand
None is perfect from mistakes we grow
Through thick n thin, through rain and snow

The future comes, but past forgot
Dishonesty n betrayal will only rot
This is the fact I want you to see
How much in life, you mean to me!

Mending A Broken Heart.....

Along the stream under the cruel falls
Amist the thick forest my broken heart calls
Entangled in thorns bruised and worse
Yet my bitter past I never want to lose

Each time I begin to relate my story
The story full of cracks n crushes along
With flame in my gaze n Ice in my veins
Yet my heart beats warm for the life it gains

Frowning in tears I only weep to God
Noone will see this beautiful face so odd
I thought I'm real but this world made me fake
Is there a way I would live for my sake?

Wanting to escape from this dark place
Even my memories should not leave a trace
Who will admire me like a piece of art
And do the best to mend my broken heart

My Love Is Dying . .. ......

Only my pillow knows
My salty tears that flow
Soaking the pages of my diary
And the fear in my heart grows

The terrifying horror around
With my soul made of gold
Laid on my marble skin
My story remains unfold

Sad stars mourning my grief
Through out the milky way
Carrying my memories
Which in my heart still stay

Echoing voice of my cries
Haunting my trembling being
Fluttering the pages in my diary
Reminding my love is dying

Only Reason. .. ....

Imperfect as I am
Wish to undo many things
Always a student in life
Never I've stopped learning

Unintentionally things I do
That hurt ands always wound you
I regret my childish deeds
That often push you in blue

Will I start growing?
And transform the person in me?
The only reason I found
Is you, who would change me slowly

I may not be perfect
But will try to ease your pain
Will hold your every tear
And make you proud again

Drug....

Loving you is my happy drug
Makes me swirl as you hold tight
Keeps me smile as I consume more
Like flying high in the night

Nothing is imperfect for me
All things that love unfolds
Is what I see my own reflection?
That seems perfect to my own

The love drug you made me long
Fainting since I want to hold
The drug in it you possess
At the end I have to controle

Can't you realise I'm addicted?
As the poison has gone to mind
I'm in search of the next dose
Since this love drug is mine

Would I Ever Love Again ???

In the dark with the music on
i reflect on this life of mine
and the emptiness only your eyes have
that only knows how to b i t ch and whine

and those hands, your beautiful hands
there the only part of you i know
we connected so many times
that i almost savor every blow

and that heart of yours
that refuses to beat
and the hate in your eyes
my only defeat

how the chains you have on me
break into my skin
I’m bleeding, I’m bleeding
but only from within

and even if i were free
id cling just the same to you
these chains don’t need to be visible
i know what I’m trained to do

id cry and beg
but in the end i would stay
this weak heart of mine
cant bear to betray

so forever and ever
ill push and ill shove
i promise never to abandon
i wont give up on love!

You Are ????

You are strong...when you take your grief and teach it to smile.
You are brave...when you overcome your fear and help others to do the same.
You are happy...when you see a flower and are thankful for the blessing.
You are loving...when your own pain does not blind you to the pain of others.
You are wise...when you know the limits of your wisdom.
You are true...when you admit there are times you fool yourself.
You are alive...when tomorrow's hope means more to you than yesterday's mistake.
You are growing...when you know what you are but not what you will become.
You are free...when you are in control of yourself and do not wish to control others.
You are honorable... when you find your honor is to honor others.
You are generous...when you can take as sweetly as you can give.
You are humble...when you do not know how humble you are.
You are thoughtful.. .when you see me just as I am and treat me just as you are.
You are merciful...when you forgive in others the faults you condemn in yourself.
You are beautiful... when you don't need a mirror to tell you.
You are rich...when you never need more than what you have.
You are you...when you are at peace with who you are not.