Words.....

In my lonely nights and endless days
Struggling myself why I felt this way
Each time you talk, you blew my mind
It's so empty and meaningless I find

Whatever I say, meant nothing to you
Your screams and yells only make me blue
You may forget your shrieks in a minute
But they linger in my heart, when think of it

Somehow you find your way in this temper
Trying to forget, losing my way, in your anger
Forever in quest of the peace in me
In you or your love it can never be

When being with you each and everyday
Did the words I say, even pass your way?
To the extent my heart has become stoned
But why do I still call you my own?

Reason

What could be the reason?
To place my faith n beleif
Is trust the only one?
It sounds nice n releived

What could be the reason?
When words are just illusion
They are used to assure
In order to accomplish a mission

What could be the reason?
When the vision disappoints me
Because what I see you cannot
Since the vision grew cold in thee

But when you tilted my face up
Asking me to see those stars that shine
Those stars disappear in daylight
One among those stars is mine

That's Her .......

I am pretty, no one to blame
Little frightened, but remain unnamed
Don't sadden me, I'll cry at night
I live in distance, out of all sight

I am not psychic, who slits her wrist
I like mystery, where I don't exist
I am very shy, but I'm well-tamed
Won't ignore you, won't bring you shame

I'm full of fake with a plastic smile
I'm out of reach beyond thousand miles
I'm poured with emotions, always in pain
My sky is dark, ready to rain

My tears flow down like tsunami flood
Not tears of water, but tears of blood
I'm loved to be hated, no one loves me
I'm weak inside, but strong for thee!

Silence

The silence of the night
The stars that shine bright
The serenity of my soul - where
The calmness of my love is shown

I stare into this space
Where pin-drop silence took place
Fearing I might disturb
The smile I have on my face

Why sleep did not come to me
My mind thinks non-stop of thee
Though eyes remain closed
The tears escaped freely

There! I decided to sit up
Staring into the dark
My mind always disturbed
Craving to hear your talks

Love .. .....

She aimed to the highest peak
She was lovely when she speaks
All pains & sorrow dint last long
She was right, proved everyone wrong

Came to standstill when she met him
It was love at first sight like in a film
She bursted into tears at their first glance
He felt she came to him like a slow dance

There was romance, passion in a row
So beautiful only they could show
Forgetting the reality around them
As days roll on, their love grew more

Although handcuffed in this strange bond
No name or definition it could belong
Though miles apart and a breathe close
Their aim in this love is to make it strong

Forever Love

On the glorious day of valentine
My thoughts of you engulfed my mind?
The joy in my heart I can’t reveal
Especially to the ones I never hide

Tears rush down burning my cheeks
Opened my mouth but hard to speak
Taking a deep breathe to talk in vain
The tears of joy rushed down again

Wanting to embrace the death this second
In order to fly my soul towards your end
Trembling in fear when appear in front of you
Chased away the nightmares I get in blues

Every “I love u” uttered by you
Is the lovely garland you put me through
My Rabba above is watching all these
That my love for You is forever True

What Happened To My Love???

Alone on this cold bench
Silence gripped my throat
Wondering how I shouted
Having uttered those ill-words

At every romancing of our names
With those tiny hearts as a full-stop
But now this cruel time should i blame?
When my love is a real flop

Locking my fingers with yours
No sign of crack in this bond
Is this is the end of my hours?
Where i can see nothing beyond

Places lingering with your laughter
Haunting my every walk in life
perfume of yours is what i breathe
Leaving me sleeping on knife

Symbols of our love engaved on trees
Brings me nothing but immense pain
Only beautiful memories exist in me
I die everyday of being insane

Can we withstand these miles apart
With drenching souls and broken hearts
Every tear drop that lands on my lips
I'll consider it as your sweet kiss

Sorrow Of Love

I have a tormented heart
Like a worn out art
I tried my best to nurture
But at the end it was tortured

Dressed up with misery now
I saw only the broken vow
The vow I thought is ferever
But I can't rely on it; never

The immortal love that I have
Accompanied by immortal pain
No wonder my heart is never gay
Coz the numbness is on its way

Very tough to continue this poem
Since I lost the strength in me
Hopelessly romantic I appeared to be
My love is pathetically destroyed slowly

Never Taught Me !!

My eternal desire is to hold you
But it seems to me so hard to do
Is something wrong with my love?
I tried alot to reason it out

Every single day i made an effort
Yet i found myself lacking the force
Finally i lay on bed in pathetic pain
My love increases but nothing i gain

Am i holding you with me so tight?
Although i want to let it go every night
But when the hold of my feelings loosen
I am scared to find myself alone in the end

These feelings dominate me in unique way
Without them i'm a walking dead everyday
A grown-up who doesn't know to live on my own
Because you never taught me to live alone!

Where Will I Go ??

I do not know where will i go
Where no-one can find me hiding so
Seeking the peace that's in my heart
Trying to find the righteous path

I do not know where will i go
So that the fake laugh I can show
But bitter tears wetting my cheeks
In death alone my life will greet

No sun is there to shine my day
Gloomy clouds only await my way
Struggling to live this life happily
Fighting myself in this battle sadly

Stop digging my wounds deeper
The pain is immense never lighter
My head hangs low but still I try
To find the peace I have to strive

... Than I Could Show !!!

There's one fact that I can't deny
U changed my world with a blink of an eye
Have been transforming from worst to best
Because you are special to me than the rest

Don't know the courage occurred within me
Is it the best that I can be?
I love to care for you and to love
Because God sent me to you from above

Whether tears of sorrow or joy
It sheds non-stop when I'm with this boy
Should I count my stars when loved by you
Since it's the day when my dreams come true

My search has ended in what I look for
Shukran-Allah! I will not ask more
Each time I sigh when feeling content
This special feeling I never felt

For hours & hours there's something to say
To the sun that sets at the end of the day
But this poem has to end as you know
I LOVE YOU more than I could show.

Heart Is Broken

Brutally my heart is broken
Where its shape & form is gone
It has been stamped and crushed
But the throbbing in it is on

My heart is in fragments
I tried in vain to fix it up
For the little pieces are lost
From the result of many erupts

All i ask is an ideal love
But it came as test from above
He did this to me for a reason
So Will my heart be whole again?

I see no one as my rescue
Is my sin so severe to cure
Won't God give me another chance?
Where in the end I can happily dance!!

If I Could Go Back

If I could go back to my time

The innocence of my past

And I could hold it tight

The wonderful present would last

I'd cherish my every moment

Bring closer to my heart

And enjoy it to my fill

Where my happiness will never part

Laughing out my heart aloud

In the form of joy and fun

Will admire every action

Action and gestures I've done

Will treasure every ounce of life

That made me cry and smile

The efforts and pains I take

To walk an extra mile

Constructing my heartfull library

Where my feelings are expressed

That'll be my autobiography

Which I will never confess

Ideal Love

The pleasant moments we spent
It's not a phase but a legend
Little things we shared n yearned
It's the unfaded treasure we've earned

Helas! why should it change today
It has affected us in a special way
Those behaviours that arise inspite
Are what I found from your eyes

Is this one calls kismat konnection?
Strong faith of mine will have no end
Physically I may be far away
But my soul reaches you everyday

There is an echo in my heart
Constantly whispering I never forgot
My love is tattooed deep in you
As this is my ideal love honest n true

For Love's Sake

Tired, sick of this feeling
This dark n cruel loneliness
Can't sleep staring at the ceiling
Like a semi-dead tigress

Alive again when the phone rings
Empty smile appears on my face
But this duration is for a while
Like my heart comes back from a race

Trying hard not to weep
Fearing she'll hear my cries
Yet the tears stream down my cheek
Escaping my sorrowful eyes

On my bed is an ocean of tears
How much more should I take?
But I'd wait a thousand years
For her and for love's sake