Heart Is Broken

Brutally my heart is broken
Where its shape & form is gone
It has been stamped and crushed
But the throbbing in it is on

My heart is in fragments
I tried in vain to fix it up
For the little pieces are lost
From the result of many erupts

All i ask is an ideal love
But it came as test from above
He did this to me for a reason
So Will my heart be whole again?

I see no one as my rescue
Is my sin so severe to cure
Won't God give me another chance?
Where in the end I can happily dance!!

If I Could Go Back

If I could go back to my time

The innocence of my past

And I could hold it tight

The wonderful present would last

I'd cherish my every moment

Bring closer to my heart

And enjoy it to my fill

Where my happiness will never part

Laughing out my heart aloud

In the form of joy and fun

Will admire every action

Action and gestures I've done

Will treasure every ounce of life

That made me cry and smile

The efforts and pains I take

To walk an extra mile

Constructing my heartfull library

Where my feelings are expressed

That'll be my autobiography

Which I will never confess

Ideal Love

The pleasant moments we spent
It's not a phase but a legend
Little things we shared n yearned
It's the unfaded treasure we've earned

Helas! why should it change today
It has affected us in a special way
Those behaviours that arise inspite
Are what I found from your eyes

Is this one calls kismat konnection?
Strong faith of mine will have no end
Physically I may be far away
But my soul reaches you everyday

There is an echo in my heart
Constantly whispering I never forgot
My love is tattooed deep in you
As this is my ideal love honest n true

For Love's Sake

Tired, sick of this feeling
This dark n cruel loneliness
Can't sleep staring at the ceiling
Like a semi-dead tigress

Alive again when the phone rings
Empty smile appears on my face
But this duration is for a while
Like my heart comes back from a race

Trying hard not to weep
Fearing she'll hear my cries
Yet the tears stream down my cheek
Escaping my sorrowful eyes

On my bed is an ocean of tears
How much more should I take?
But I'd wait a thousand years
For her and for love's sake

Never Will I Forget

Last year when we had met
That's the day I never forget
The nights that we have shared
Made me learn you were rare

Very hard to beleive I met you
But it's the fact and it's true
It was love from my very end
Along with love came our passions

Helas! things took it's bend
Day by day my love was abandoned
I only survive to make you happy
But why do you make me feel crappy?

Wishing this link should go on
Although my trust for you has gone
Will I ever get over what you do?
Desperately wanting to make you true

Wretchedly I was dying that night
Yet i forgave you at your plight
Struggling with trying to forget
Because I love u the same as we met

Only One Chance

There's no more my heart can take
Always a second chance I want to make
Now it has become three, if it turns four
I will go away for I cant bear more

I can't rule your life for you
The choice is yours with what you do
Inside I have but nothing left
In times of love it feels like death

I'm only human, wanting more joy
Don't treat me like I'm just a toy
I hope from now you'll think of me
Through this distance, in love's loyalty

We have one life to walk in hand
At times it's hard, at times it's grand
None is perfect from mistakes we grow
Through thick n thin, through rain and snow

The future comes, but past forgot
Dishonesty n betrayal will only rot
This is the fact I want you to see
How much in life, you mean to me!

Mending A Broken Heart.....

Along the stream under the cruel falls
Amist the thick forest my broken heart calls
Entangled in thorns bruised and worse
Yet my bitter past I never want to lose

Each time I begin to relate my story
The story full of cracks n crushes along
With flame in my gaze n Ice in my veins
Yet my heart beats warm for the life it gains

Frowning in tears I only weep to God
Noone will see this beautiful face so odd
I thought I'm real but this world made me fake
Is there a way I would live for my sake?

Wanting to escape from this dark place
Even my memories should not leave a trace
Who will admire me like a piece of art
And do the best to mend my broken heart

My Love Is Dying . .. ......

Only my pillow knows
My salty tears that flow
Soaking the pages of my diary
And the fear in my heart grows

The terrifying horror around
With my soul made of gold
Laid on my marble skin
My story remains unfold

Sad stars mourning my grief
Through out the milky way
Carrying my memories
Which in my heart still stay

Echoing voice of my cries
Haunting my trembling being
Fluttering the pages in my diary
Reminding my love is dying

Only Reason. .. ....

Imperfect as I am
Wish to undo many things
Always a student in life
Never I've stopped learning

Unintentionally things I do
That hurt ands always wound you
I regret my childish deeds
That often push you in blue

Will I start growing?
And transform the person in me?
The only reason I found
Is you, who would change me slowly

I may not be perfect
But will try to ease your pain
Will hold your every tear
And make you proud again

Drug....

Loving you is my happy drug
Makes me swirl as you hold tight
Keeps me smile as I consume more
Like flying high in the night

Nothing is imperfect for me
All things that love unfolds
Is what I see my own reflection?
That seems perfect to my own

The love drug you made me long
Fainting since I want to hold
The drug in it you possess
At the end I have to controle

Can't you realise I'm addicted?
As the poison has gone to mind
I'm in search of the next dose
Since this love drug is mine

Would I Ever Love Again ???

In the dark with the music on
i reflect on this life of mine
and the emptiness only your eyes have
that only knows how to b i t ch and whine

and those hands, your beautiful hands
there the only part of you i know
we connected so many times
that i almost savor every blow

and that heart of yours
that refuses to beat
and the hate in your eyes
my only defeat

how the chains you have on me
break into my skin
I’m bleeding, I’m bleeding
but only from within

and even if i were free
id cling just the same to you
these chains don’t need to be visible
i know what I’m trained to do

id cry and beg
but in the end i would stay
this weak heart of mine
cant bear to betray

so forever and ever
ill push and ill shove
i promise never to abandon
i wont give up on love!

You Are ????

You are strong...when you take your grief and teach it to smile.
You are brave...when you overcome your fear and help others to do the same.
You are happy...when you see a flower and are thankful for the blessing.
You are loving...when your own pain does not blind you to the pain of others.
You are wise...when you know the limits of your wisdom.
You are true...when you admit there are times you fool yourself.
You are alive...when tomorrow's hope means more to you than yesterday's mistake.
You are growing...when you know what you are but not what you will become.
You are free...when you are in control of yourself and do not wish to control others.
You are honorable... when you find your honor is to honor others.
You are generous...when you can take as sweetly as you can give.
You are humble...when you do not know how humble you are.
You are thoughtful.. .when you see me just as I am and treat me just as you are.
You are merciful...when you forgive in others the faults you condemn in yourself.
You are beautiful... when you don't need a mirror to tell you.
You are rich...when you never need more than what you have.
You are you...when you are at peace with who you are not.

My Identity

In a silent boulevard of broken dreams
I searched in vain for an identity
The stars above dimming my gaze
But the moon is guiding me with glee

Joy on earth I found nowhere
Neither life took me anywhere
Happiness turns a grim face to me
Living in this world is hard to see

Finding among this madding crowd
Although can't find a friend for me
But I can only see the never ending path
Like an autumn with a single tree

Don't know where is my destination
Or something I have left behind
For my path is as gloomy as the mist
May be it's 'my identity' I can't find

Fool Like Me

Although I knew it hurts me bad
The worst part is when thought I had
The unseen feelings which did nothing
Yet I cherished it when I am waiting

People advise that life should go on
I should salute when they are so strong
People chucks when things are gone
But like a fool I think they are wrong

Heaven on earth I never saw
Even on pretty sunset that a kid draws
I will beleive if one thing exists
Is when you are beside, as I look in awe

But all I can, is stare and wonder
The day I felt in love is my blunder
Hiding within me the way I feel
Putting a mask as if no big deal

Fallen Angel

I was just another fallen angel
Wings drooped upon the floor
There's no beauty to them
They're worth nothing anymore

Places where the utmost beauty were
Now the holes of pain reside
There's no feelings left anymore
Nothing more to hide

How much longer until this stops
The pain, the hurt subsides
When can this stop feeling wrong
When can I stop dying inside

I have to pick myself up
To make this all go away
Patch up the holes in my wings
And learn how to fly again

I may not have the perfect wings
I've always wished for and adored
But I'll have to work with what I got
And show them, my life means more

I won't let myself fall anymore
Won't let them see me cry
I'll prove them wrong, I'll get back up
And teach these broken wings to fly.

My Tear Has Soul

Each drop of my tears
Would utter when it falls
Wishing the effort it has
To make our bond strong

It will regret every second
The escape from my eyes
For it has broken my heart
Like a hammer breaks the ice

But my tear has a soul
Where it never harms at all
When it hurts itself
I die in pain coz I'm its own

Why my tears pain in guilt?
Seeing the silence that you built
Is my excess love held responsibility?
On behalf of my tears do forgive me.

Do You Love Me ?

Do you love me when the stars are out
Can you see where I am
The brightest star tonight
Do you love me when you see the moon
As the world turns, can you reach out and touch me
Is my hair soft and golden,
Are my eyes close to you

Do you love me when the sun shines on a flower
Can you smell the grass and trees
Is that where you will find me
I want to be all of yours
Will you look at a butterfly and know I have passed by

Do you love me when you see a rainbow
Is my heart beating in time or space
Will you come to me if I close my eyes
I see you as I read many books to learn
My soul is calling yours, will you answer
You speak in every language
I hear your voice in the distance
I see you everywhere I turn.

Do you love me when I am walking near the ocean
As the seagulls sing above
And the sky reminds me of the blue in your eyes
I want you to be part of who I am
And when you do, we will be as one
I have an unconditional love,
Which I would like you to share
Do you see my heart loving you,
Until the end is near.

I Am A Castaway

Behind these glowing eyes
Hidden from everyone, all my lies
Many events that blocked my tears
The moments that I wasted my years

Life filled with unlimited pains
Soaking wet my deformed soul
Flaming my road to destination
Burning my skin with all vengeance

Slowly falling apart to pieces
Melting my heart to my feet
Alone in the dark street of fear
Heads turned away afraid to come near

But yet the last thing I'd see
Is the tears that flow from thee
That is the slow poison injected in me
I'd rather die if that makes you free

I Really Can't Do .......

My constant wish is to hold you
A simple desire that makes me blue
My love I have is out of the world
It takes a lifetime to stop this swirl

Even if I die, my life will go on
Gripping on my feelings that move along
Finding myself in pathetic pain
Because my love for you increased again

Holding you tight deep down my heart
Fearing I might loosen my grip
Do not know why I do this
I only know, you! I shouldn't miss

My strange feelings dominate me
I depend on them not breaking free
They enchant me, when on my own
By the thoughts of you, I'm not alone

Is this what one calls real love?
I tried to forget the message sent from above
But why is that I want only you?
Forget her boy! that's something I can't do

There is Only One Life

There's no more my heart can take
Always a second chance I want to make
Now it has become three, if it turns four
I will go away for I cant bear more

I can't rule your life for you
The choice is yours with what you do
Inside I have but nothing left
In times of love it feels like death

I'm only human, wanting more joy
Don't treat me like I'm just a toy
I hope from now you'll think of me
Through this distance, in love's loyalty

We have one life to walk in hand
At times it's hard, at times it's grand
None is perfect from mistakes we grow
Through thick n thin, through rain and snow

The future comes, but past forgot
Dishonesty n betrayal will only rot
This is the fact I want you to see
How much in life, you mean to me!